My daughter called tonight and said she had some of Rod's things she thought I would want. On my way over, I passed this point where I stopped for a picture. It was poignant, as the first time Rod saw this body of water, he was awestruck. And, I'm thinking - oh no, I thought I was over it after 21 years and here comes fall again. Then when I stopped at her house, my youngest grandson was acting much like Rod when he was upset and my heart and mind, for a moment, broke. No, one can't run away from life, nor can one avoid the pain. The only way for both is to go through it. And keep going through it until one comes out on the other side. I am trying hard tonight to be in a vibrant and passionate state of being, but it is muted for another day's try.
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Oh big hugs to you.
I remember when I learned the truth that pain never goes away. We learn to live with it, and it processes differently over different times in our lives.
You are beautiful and I am so sorry for anything sad you feel. I am thinking of you dear sweet spirit!
Its hard losing someone we love and it hurts even more when its a child not that i know that pain but its what i have been told. I hope you can rejuvinate and look back at the happy times you had with him.
Hugs my friend. Things will get better and better. Maybe not anytime soon but they will. He knows you think of him and that is all that matters..
Loving you Sistah.
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