Ah wants one, ah wants one baaaaaad. There is a plethora of little chicks for sale here. I see them everywhere on people, sort of like the tiny dog thing with movie stars. Oh they are so cuddly, so cute, and chickens make quite good pets I hear. However, I think all of our meowies might become werecats should I bring a chick home. Sigh!

Hubby is sick of doing litter boxes and me being down - he would probably freak out and head to Alaska if he had to rake up chickie poo in addition, do ya think?

Tomorrow I go for a transfusion. Doc's office called me freaking out - they had just received my bloodwork results. The red cell count was half of what it should be. I told them weeks ago I needed something, way too tired then!

Some signs of anemia:
Exhaustion
Pale Skin
Paler Gums
Sensitive mouth (I can't eat my usual hot stuff!)
Wierd cravings - (mine: ice, more ice, string cheese, carbonated green tea, and Coke)
Heart flutterings
More exhaustion
dizziness (no duh)

I'm not too bummed - I will feel better. (Although I wanted to spend my last two free days on the beach getting brown.) I will take a couple of the books I'm reading, string cheese, a Coke and sit in a plushy recliner with all the people getting chemo, have my car valet parked, be served lunch, and then I will FEEL BETTER! Just in time to go back to work. The back just keeps feeling better - hattigrace thanks for telling me about this - I love ya!

May Lose a Few Days -

I started the treatments to my back yesterday. They are exhausting as I have to drive at least a two hours and then spend an hour or more there with some significant pain during the treatment, leaving me worth nothing afterward but pain.

However I had a wonderful clear morning (before treatment) this a.m. and walked for 1.5 hours - no pain! I still have faith they will work.

I find pain very interesting - I have tried all kinds of ways to handle it - from being slowly ate away to find myself unpleasant on all counts, to lying down and floating into it and asking it questions, (like "What is your purpose here, Pain?") to concentrating on it and feeling it on every level, resisting and crying, trying to separate the physical cause from the result in the brain cells....so ok, all this sounds like pain makes you crazy doesn't it - or does it sound very uh - Zen - philosophical - ???? I am such a chicken, such a chicken, a real wimp, I fear.

Hopefully tomorrah I will get on to everyone's blog......if not, please know I think about you and will catch up...