Wednesday, February 14, 2007

The Road to Tucumcari











We stopped in Cheyenne and cleaned Ms. Kittie up for next leg of trip. The land was covered with snow obviously drifted deeply across the road in some places. Cuts by the snow plow left about three feet deep snow on each side of the road in places.
In southern Colorado I saw a large abandoned steel mill and an interesting looking little town, which I'm sure was suffering economically. Colorado had the worst roads of any state I've seen. I enjoyed the mountains, including Pike's Peak always being on my right. Colorado's mountains and forests are entirely different than Wyoming's.
On into New Mexico and finally losing the white, crusted, shining snow covered lands, I found a charming place called Las Vegas, New Mexico. I drove around enjoying the town, snapping pics. I especially enjoyed the old-fashioned drug store with old soda fountain and the little adobe gas station. At the station I met a man who told me about a road to Tucumcari which would cut about 2oo miles from my trip.
After a few miles, I should have had a clue that I wasn't going to like it when the speed limit dropped to 25 mph. On a highway? I slowed down, and then for miles felt like I would just faint away. I have an extreme fear of heights and the road to Tucumcari wound through steep, beautiful canyons. I should never have watched that documentary on the Road of Death in Peru. I could not look out at the vista which must have been awesome, because my head was swimming. Anyway, I made it and thankfully did not meet any other vehicles. Then, down, down, down, down, to flatter land. No wonder New Mexico is called the Land of Enchantment. It was sooooooooo beautiful and fascinating.
I did not have any fantastic meals, as I lived off of string cheese and oranges on the trip. I thought if I spied a good Tex-Mex place in Las Vegas I would splurge - but it was too early in the morning.
The next States were a bit of Oklahoma and a skip across the top of Texas. Ugh. More later.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Leaving Wyo




Ms. Meowi - packed & ready to go - (complete with water bowl and clean up towels.)

The night before departure - reminds me of the old, old song, "Red Sails in the Sunset."

Bob Dylan (I think) had a song where he sang about "leaving Wyo" - in fact, there are at least a handful of songs about leaving Wyo - must be a good place to leave, drive through, visit, etc., not stay!

One of my daughter's friends, Paul, came over and networked us with a router - I'm on line on my OWN computer - it rocks! Thanks, Paul!

The two ladies prefer to remain anonymous due to cyber stalkers.

More pics later.

Friday, February 09, 2007

Settling In



Yippeee ki yo - I made it in! Not much time, had to run to Mobile this a.m. for granddaughter's band competition. They placed lst and - they are going to STATE! I was completely blown away - a private school band that sounds like the orchestra pit during a "CATS" show!

Now, slowly unloading car, putting things away.

Seems like during the time I was gone, the "hole" I left, if any, filled up quickly and most traces of me eradicated - now to dig my way back in - I started with the study, but still have not hooked my computer up yet. Daughter got the router connected with hers so hopefully can share high speed internet.

Miss Meowi seems quite happy. Psycho is even hissing at me, he likes being top dog - oops, cat. Big Meowi took off this a.m. Blast his hide - he scares me when he does that! He usually returns at 3:00 a.m. under the cover of darkness to shred the bedroom screens announcing that the pleasure of his highness' presence is now available.

I have pics of trip and some wandering stories, will post when I get a little more acclimated to actually "living" here. Now, off to visit each of you tonight - I hope. Gotta check the chicken & the brussels sprouts first.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Egads - not gone yet

well, surprise, surprise, I made it through the dialup - took two attempts - just a short note - I've been delayed because of weather - lots of snow, wind, ice, sub-zero temps - parts of Wyoming are 50 below. US Weather says the first of the week will be breaking for I-25, so I shall either do it tomorrow or Sunday! My mother has me freaked, convinced I will be blown off the road and freeze to death in some barrow pit. No wonder I have a morose personality...I mailed more stuff - not much is fitting in the car - going to have to leave stuff I would rather not leave - like my ceramics, some clothing - (some of which the dogs have already chewed up ) - my feather comforter (sob) - boy what a mess in Florida last night - I'm really getting the lectures today about how awful it is to live in Florida - but I have to remind her that we've had many, many highway deaths already this winter here in Wyo. "But they didn't lose their houses." "No, mother, but I guess they don't need them now, huh?" Gotta go - make arrangments to pick up Ms. Meowi - pack her stuff - clean up this bedroom - say a prayer I get out of here safely - once I hit New Mexico I ought to be ok. Miss ya all - first thing I'll do is get my 'puter up and going!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Catchen' ya all up

Not too many visitors since I passworded - but I will fix that when I get to Florida, I know it is a pain to get through the codes. I'm on my mother's dial up and not able to get everyone's blog up to comment - in fact this is barely taking my keyboarding right now. Repacking, getting medical records together, packing some more and taking off Feb. 1 if weather reports continue good. I was at the public library yesterday trying to get on blogs, apply for jobs, checking bank, etc., and there were so many people there it was as impossible as this dialup. The guy in front of me turned around and threatened to kill me if I continued to cough. The young woman next to him chewed him out good, what a woman she was, and he desisted. I looked about me and it was reminiscent of the movie, "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" but no Ms. Ratchett to keep order. Later I found out that the Mission house a few blocks away sent their clients out in the day time to job search. Methamphetamine which is so rampant here makes people mean, unable to keep themselves clean even physically after a certain point, and robs thinking abilities. Then I start thinking its my fault, I must be a magnet not only for cops, but for the demon possessed? Then I feel sorry for folks who are just down on their luck and are subject to people like this guy who probably should be in the State hospital rather than being where he can really hurt someone. Speaking of the demon possessed, not a peep out of the old workplace. Odd, if I was worthy of being fired that they would approve unemployment. Ok, enough, this is taking eons to type. Will try to visit blogs tonight.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Thursday 13: Thermopolis Vacation
























































































Ran out of energy to pack - so back at the Computer - procrastinating - Couldn't resist a Thursday 13 - have never done it before, hope I've done it right. (Except for the pics being reversed from the text).

Stop #1 - Independence Rock (on Oregon Trail)
Stop #2 - Hell's Half Acre
Stop #3 - Wind River - Canyons
Stop #4 - Looking out over Dinosaur Dig
Stop #5 - Fossil Fish
Stop #6 - Grasseater
Stop #7 - The Spirit Bear imparts some of his wisdom
Stop #8 - The Teddy Bear Museum
Stop #9 - Quilting was an essential part of survival on the Prairie
Stop #10 - In front of a hot pool - you do not want to put your toes in there - unless you are planning on them for dinner!
Stop #11 - In the Plunge - warm, mineral laden swimming
Stop #12 - Checking in for the night
Stop #13 - Dreaming of Ghostriders in the Sky
Sorry - the pictures are in reverse - new blogger is as contrary to setting pictures as old one!










































































































































































































































































































































For Mr. Anchovy























Picture #1 - The Platte up by Saratoga (also has Hot Springs there)

Picture #2 - A Hot Pool at Thermopolis, Wyoming
Picture #3 - The River that runs through Wind River Canyon - this is on an Indian Reservation, it is wild and awesome - so many layers in the rock - you can see so far back in history! Great Trout! This is favorite!

Picture #3 - Hell's Half Acre (The depth does not show well) Wyoming's mini version of Hell's Half Acre.


Short Break

Well, tomorrow is the last day to pack before loading up. I'll probably not be logging on for a few days. One of the UPS boys picked up boxes this morning, bless his heart, and I just went over and paid for them, squeaking all the while. Whew, expensive. Sold all furniture except a couple of small items & a couple of antiques. Shipped ahead the paints, art supplies, can't live without those or computers. Also some clothing. While packing, found a pair of birkies in a suitcase that I thought were somehow lost forever, hooray!

Feets are FREEZING - it is hovering around zero temperature wise all of the time. If I weren't leaving I would go invest in heavy rubber boots with lots of warm foam lining and some work gloves. Brrrr. Youngest daughter tells me she found me three sweaters at a really hot sale - yay!!!!!!!!!!

License plate fees are due - so I got the bright idea of calling my southern state and seeing if I could renew long distance so I wouldn't have to pay fees here and there as well, and I could! But I had to switch to that state's auto insurance and after two hours on my cell phone (and about $80 buckeroos a month over what I pay now for auto insurance) that was accomplished. Now to figure out the forms I downloaded. Also forms, forms, forms for unemployment applications, roll over of retirement contributions to IRA so I won't get whapped with taxes all at once (though I'll probably need to use the funds to exist for a while), need to return all DSL modems, TV box, cables, etc., etc. tomorrow. (Will try to figure out how to get the router to work when I get there.) Finally, will take files for church website up to church, load on their computer and drop off ministry manuals.

Landlord is in glee because he thinks he can collect double rent until the end of the month, so I am telling him I'll mail him the key, that I will probably be in and out until the end of the month, though the truth is I never want to come back here ever. I pray we can get everything in one load!

While in my mother's town waiting for a break in the weather on I-10, I can go around and gather up my medical records for transport back to the South. Her house is deliciously warm, so I'll snuggle a bit in between packing the auto for the long trip. Keeping my pounds off that I have lost will be a challenge at her house.

Does anyone know if leaving my computers in the car while it is zero degrees will damage them? I think you are not supposed to leave media where it is extremely hot or cold.

I need about 4 more tranquillizers for Ms. Meowi. Riding is not high up on her list of want to's. (Least I won't be lonely - she will be moaning the whole trip.) I will get bed pads for the bottom of her cage, baking pans for litter when we stop to sleep at a motel. Dear, dear, hope she fits in with the boys ok. Psycho has become a top bunk bed dweller with the little boy. Big Meowie will claim his place at the foot of my bed (hubby will be very unhappy - in fact he and Ms. Meowie will probably be battling for a pillow next to my head.)

Next item for manual on how to live with disability: emptying cat litter box for multiple cats - I have an idea....put the box in a little red wagon and hope kitties don't mind a bit higher jump, and when the box be fulla poopoo, take the handle and pull wagon to garbage can. Perhaps there is some sort of gadget that you can put the box on and stomp a lever with your foot until the litter box becomes level with the top of the garbage and then whoooooooooooop - over the edge!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Lost in His World


While commenting on Candy Minx' blog, the Walter Anderson Museum and Anderson's work popped into my mind. We used to get coupons from the casinos in Biloxi for great room rates and a free buffet. Hey, who can turn down crab legs and a chance to visit that part of the Gulf Coast?
Quite by accident while discovering the area ( we are not much on gambling and the noise of casinos either), we found the Walter Anderson Museum as well as a pottery making commune of artists in the area (Shearwater Pottery). These folks are Andersons as well who do folk art pottery. What a delightful trip that was! Art AND the beach!
Anderson's work is focused on geography and flora and fauna, sea creatures, and spiritual feel of the coastal area that he loved so much. If you ever get close to the area, visit this museum. You will be delighted and awed. Sadly some of his work was destroyed in Hurricane Katrina.
I always love finding art that touches me in a way that I feel the production is a "God thing." To me, art is a part of God, since God was the creator of all things - isn't it nice to have that God-like gift within us?

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

When the Victim gets victimized again

It's been interesting - but yet, its just another story of a person kidnapped and mostly likely abused. The story of Shawn may never completely come out, but I imagine the worst - I'm sure the man that kidnapped this boy and another boy did not do so in order to give them a better life. The questions being asked are shameful such as "why didn't he leave?" -- Why do millions of children in intolerable situations not leave?

Below is one reason: (From "Wikepedia")

The Stockholm syndrome is a psychological response sometimes seen in an abducted hostage, in which the hostage exhibits loyalty to the hostage-taker, in spite of the danger (or at least risk) in which the hostage has been placed. Stockholm syndrome is also sometimes discussed in reference to other situations with similar tensions, such as battered person syndrome, rape cases, child abuse cases, and bride kidnapping.

Another reason could be - "FEAR." Or being so psychologically manipulated and lied to and threatened that the individual feels they have no place to go and their parents don't love them anymore or they would have found them.

Reminds me of a case in Florida where a child molester got ahold of two young boys. The father began to get suspicious of the time this creep was spending with his boys and cut the creep out of their lives. The creep then sneaked around seeing the kids, manipulating them into thinking their dad was abusing them for setting limits, and finally set up the murder of the boy's father because his access to the boys was limited. The boys ended up being charged with the murder while the creep retained his freedoms. The press printed that that sexual abuse one of the boys was under was an "affair." An 8 year old boy - an "affair?" I wanted to go kill the creep myself and then while I was at it, hang the editor of the newspaper. There was a book written by one of the reporters covering the case. While the boys went to prison, much evidence pointed toward the molester, incidentally had a friend, a sheriff's deputy who visited he and the boys often when he had them.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Alphabet Soup Tag

Still packing, complied with Unemployment requirements this a.m., and now on my way out to turn over Missions to someone else - I pray there is someone else. Happier posting:

New Tag!

A - Available/Single or Taken? Taken.
B - Best Friend? My girls.
C - Cake or pie? Neither, sugar makes me sorry.
D - Drink Of Choice? Champagne & Orange Juice (Le Mimosa!)
E – Essential Item You Use Everyday? Olay
F - Favourite Color? Green (like grass, trees, earth greens)
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? Neither after reading Blue Apple's discovery.
H - Hometown? Rawlins, Wyoming (BUT I am never going back ever again, if I could I would dig up my relatives bones and take them out of here with me!)
I - Indulgence? I am bidding on a Barefoot Dreams Robe. Ah wants it.
J - February? February, the gaiety of Mardi Gras, and its that much closer to spring!
K - Kids & Their Names? Oh, definitely Christian, Taylor & Sagie Bear.
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? Family
M - Marriage date? Uh - March 3, 1973 (last time - still married.)
Trying not to remember previous ones.
N - Number Of Siblings? Counting some I've never seen, steps & 1/2's - 4
O - Oranges Or Apples? Depends on my mood.
P - Phobias/Fears? Living on the streets. Getting chronically ill.
Q - Favourite Quote? Since my political fiasco? “It is said that power corrupts, but actually it's more true that power attracts the corruptible. The sane are usually attracted by other things than power. “ David Brin
R - Reason to Smile? Sunsets, dolphins, bays, beaches, good art, grandkid arms around my neck
S - Season? Spring or Fall? Neither - I would love a perpetual summer
T - Tag 3 or 4 people? Life, Pickled Olives, TSHM, Puppy, "L," my sister (if you're all packed.)
U - Unknown Fact About Me? None, I blab all
V - Vegetable you don’t like? stewed tomatoes
W -Worst Habit? Right now - procrastination - happens every time I need to pack
X - How many xrays have you had? Too many to count.
Y - Your Favorite Food? uh, that's really hard - great sushi?
Z – Zodiac sign? Capricorn, why oh why. We're supposed to be stable aren't we?

Dysfunction Junction


Oh Folks, woke up down in the dumps today - my back hurt all night - the rest of the packing looks overwhelming - maybe it isn't - just feels that way - I need to get all the bedding off and can't lift the mattresses to get the bed skirts off - watched a depressing movie about politics last night which I shouldn't have ("24") with Keith Sutherland.

Didn't want to go to church because one of the most virulent editorial writers about my old boss goes there.

I don't quite compute how my husband can say he loves me, and leave me out here to deal with all this myself with my back so messed up. If it were turned around, I would help him, I have helped him to my inconvenience, but isn't that what marriage is supposed to be about? But in the future, I would think twice before doing so, I'm so hurt and angry about that, and I'm not even back there yet. Guess he loves me if I am not inconvenient.

My sis can't come help, she's in the middle of moving and trying to find a place to live. My mother is insisting on me staying at her place until well into February - and I would stay a couple of weeks, although I want to get out of this cold weather, and get settled. A month makes me feel hopeless. I'm starting to dread talking to her. She calls me daily with every terrible weather report in the Country and embelishes to make it even worse. She even counted my pills when I had my previous back surgery to make sure I didn't take "too many," never mind what the prescription said, (I still have some left over a year later - taking too many pills is not my thing), goes through the paper work tucked here & there in my car, anywhere else she can find it. I HAVE to mail all important papers directly to my home. Jees, even your own mother, you don't want knowing every detail of your business or life. Maybe I'm being too negative, I know she is going to be lonely - 2,000 miles is a lot further than 125. Maybe I should lay around there, eat just salads & fruit, take walks if the ground is not solid ice, try to get my health built up before leaving. But then why wait until my money is all gone? Oh dear Lord, I need direction.
I often wonder what it would be like to live somewhere besides Dysfunction Junction.

Something is wrong with this picture. At my age, I am supposed to have a home that I am the matriarch of, that runs according to MY schedule, be retired with real retirement $ behind me, and not still roaming the country like a 20 year old just getting started in life wondering what is going to happen to me in the next 20 years.

The girls both have kids in school. So that leaves - nada. Makes it worse because I hate having to have help - I've always been so independent in my life, I could do anything until recent years - well, until coming out here and losing 5 disks in my back. Now I can't even clean a blankety blank house.

Guess I'll go scrounge a couple of eggs for breakfast - I have many, many trips to make out back to dumpster today. It's below zero, but tolerable unless the wind gets into it. Have to go get the rest of Crohn's meds - the pharmacy never keeps enough in stock to fill a whole prescription.

I filed for a hearing at work, per our policies, just so I can say I have followed all the procedures. Makes me sick to my stomach to think about going in front of commissioners and their attorney and the new clerk - SD, but I will if I have to. Unemployment is "deciding" if I should get any because I was dismissed. I just sent off papers with an explanation of, "no reason for dismissal," never worked for new Clerk. All other recommendations - glowing, including commissioners - at least that's what was said when they were saying "goodbye" in December, despite all the put downs while they were trying to get SD into office.

What is the alternative to politics? They are an anarchy all of their own.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Moving & Climate Changes - Inconvenient Truth

Hi folks, thanks for coming to my party. I loved the "gifts" and had a happy evening giggling over some of them. The dancing man was getting thinner toward the end - I think. I forwarded the fart website to my grandchildren - soooooooo much information on that site, I learned a lot. :0

We are in the midst of a snowstorm that is really quite beautiful except for the fact I am trying to sell my furniture and also plan to take boxes to UPS to ship. Yike. Its supposed to keep up until next Weds., Thurs. I guess my rent is paid to end of month, its just when you have people willing to help load trucks, you want to take them when they can come!

A second hand shop owner and antique dealer came by and I was finally able to place my dining room table & little coffee table at about 1930's. I thought so. So, how can I part with them? Can't. Well, maybe.

A friend of mine had the honor of being 1 of 1,000 chosen to be trained on Al Gore's presentation of the Global Warming problem. Now I have become fearful in that regard because I believe he said that we have a 30 year window to do something or our world will be in serious trouble. I believe this. I want to see "Inconvenient Truth." Anyway, if you believe this too, please click on the link below and send it on to your Congress reps. I would rather take action that sit around being scared. Anyone seen the movie? My friend said Al Gore is as brilliant a man as I thought he might be.
Subject: Help Al Gore Send a Message to Congress
Hi,
Al Gore is ready to build on the success of "An Inconvenient Truth" and start organizing to solve the climate crisis. He's working to get hundreds of thousands of messages to Congress demanding real action to stop global warming. And he's asking for our help.
Can you help out by signing the petition at the link below? If you do, Al Gore will personally deliver our comments to Congress. I just did it myself and it only takes a second.
http://pol.moveon.org/climatecrisis/
Thanks!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Invitation

Come to my cyber birthday party. Today, I won't tell ya how old I am. So don't sing that song. Recommendations for great CD's would be welcome. And bring a poem, or link, or you favorite something, or something to share. Dress is - well pretend you are 4 and are dressing yourself in whatever you want and please share what you have on.

We are having tweety bird cake, so bring your kitties with you (or puppies), ice cream and watermelon punch. Also wine, champagne & orange juice, and margueritas will be served with chips and salsa.

We are going to the cyber beach for playing at the shore, making sand castles, a barbecue in the evening. Prizes for the first dolphin sighting! Your party treats are going to be hibiscus blossoms for your hair. (for the girls.), and hand painted wine glasses for the wine, and screen printed sarongs.

After dark, we'll have a cyber bonfire - and who knows (Mr. Anchovy, bring your accordian) when we'll go home.

No RSVP needed.

Monday, January 08, 2007

70 things 'bout me


Going to be gone for a couple of days so, posting early.
At the request of Pickled Olives, here it 'tis... THE LIST

1. Getting old in the body, but not in the head.
2. Lost 15 pounds since going to Florida and coming back to get fired.
3. I have a raven tattoo, ha hoo.
4. I love curries, indian food.
5. I love my kids, grandkids, madly.
6. I love music, but am a music idiot sort of.
7. I love anything to do with computers.
8. I want to be a well known artist.
9. I would like to learn how to tattoo.
10.I yearn to get closer to God.
11. I can live for three days off of artichoke hearts.
12. I can live for three days off of palm hearts.
13. I had a very miserable childhood.
14. Add into that miserable teen years.
15. Married at 17 to get out of house.
16. Divorced at 18 when I got pregnant.
17. Second time around, married a Pakistani, lasted two days, he went back to Pakistan, returned two years later, and I stayed married two more years so he could get citizenship even though I hit the road at his return.
18. Married a country boy from Iowa who was the baby of the family. He wanted to stay in that position. Another divorce.
19. Hitchhiked to the East Village in New York City from Baltimore, Maryland (with a girl friend.)
20. Have always adored Bob Dylan.
21. I think Elvis was the sexiest man ever alive on earth.
22. Tried out to be a playboy bunny. (Picture a six foot two woman in five inch heals and a bunny tail - of course, I did not get picked.)
23. Fell in love with an artist - the love of my youth. Whatever that kind of love was.
24. Pretended to be an intellectual - this charms older guys when you are a pretty young thing.
25. Spent ten years of my life not watching TV, movies, listening to "secular" music, to get closer to God.
26. Spent two days with the Hare Krishnas in New York.
27. Traveled to Albania.
28. Worked ten years for a missions organization.
29. Worked ten years for a municipality.
30. Worked two years in an insane county.
31. Used to be a wimp, now you can't back me down, ever.
32. Loved cats. Now, like cats.
33. Dogs overwhelm me. I don't like fighting to be alpha every minute. They don't understand me when I claim to be Alpha Woman.
34. I like deep sea fishing.
35. I like deli food.
36. Want to abruptly throw clothes, kids, grandkids in car and go to Graceland.
37. Want to dance on the beach in the moonlight in celebration of upcoming birthday.
38. I have too much of a conviction of what is right. It is hard for me to look away from wrong doings if it affects me.
39. I can't save, I like to buy presents way too much.
40. I love tomato soup with crackers.
41. I used to never sleep in, now I love to.
42. I like fluffy down things, pillows, covers, vests.
43. I have an eclectic bunch of friends.
44. I am conservative mostly except for a few idiosyncracies. :)
45. I am still looking to what my future might bring.
46. If I had the money, I would get plastic surgery - what kind is your guess, tee hee.
47. Actually, I would love an extreme makeover.
48. I am loyal, extremely loyal, until I have been betrayed.
49. I love pampering at the spa when I get a chance.
50. I cry when I see a Dolphin jump out of the water on the bay.
51 I cry when I read about a manatee being ripped by a boat and killed.
52. I cry a lot.
53. I love clothes, if I were rich I would have the hugest closet full!
54. I get very ticked when the environment, children, women, men, get abused.
55. I love French Bakery's.
56. I love old movies, if they are good. (Casablanca, etc.)
57. I want to be a writer.
58. I spent a lot of years thinking I was ugly, gawky, & no one could love me.
59. Now I'm sad I didn't know that I was beautiful. This is a lot of our stories, huh?
60. Me as a Jr. in High School - see piccy above.
61. I'm almost a compulsive worrier.
62. I like a place with everything in its place, but can rarely achieve it.
63. I used to like to go to the hospital when I was a child, it was comforting. (Go figure)
64. Iranians used to run after me - they thought I was bea-you-tee-ful, like movie star.
65. In my 20's & 30's I hid from Iranian men who thought I was bea-you-tee-ful like movie star.
66. I used to be attracted to bad relationships - I think. Somehow ended up in them.
67. I've been married to same hubby since 1973. Record!
68. My boss talked me out of moving to Pakistan with the 2nd hubby. Said he might have another wife. Good boss! There was a first wife, I would be second wife also four children he forgot to mention.
69. I have allergies.
70. I love to travel world wide, fantasy trip: Orient Express from England to Instanbul!
Now I tag YOU!


What a day! My back burns like fire. BUT, hired a lady to come help and we packed and we packed some more. I'm down to the nitty gritty - sorting stuff, stuff I need to live, so its getting close. I think I might be ahead of the game as far as packing goes. She even loaded my car with some loose stuff that I will drive to my mother's tomorrow and hauled loads of garbage out to the dumpster in 75 mph winds. I simply couldn't have done it myself. These winds are from hell. Don't know how much more I can stand. At least there seems to be less snow.

My final check has not shown up and this was the day, according to State Statute it was supposed to be here. Now I wonder what is up. Ok, no worry, self, stop it! Do not worry, do not!

I'm going to Subway and get a meatball sub and a Coke and come back and fire up that DVD player Christmas present and put heat on my owie back.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Avalanches

There is so much snow here and it keeps coming and coming and coming. I wanted to go get my kitty from boarding today, but the roads were closed pretty much every way there is out of town because of blowing snow and limited visibility.

Colorado experienced what could have been a deadly avalanche - tons of snow sliding down the mountain at 50 mph right over the top of cars that were traveling a mountain road gave everyone quite a scare.

I hate driving in winter. I'm ok with snow, with cold, but add solid ice to the roads and wind limiting visibility and tons of snow falling on my car, no thanks! I have to unpack boxes & packing materials out of the car, and I'm terrified I'll fall on the thick ice with snow over the top of it in the lot and hurt what's already hurt worse. Been there, done that. I'm looking closely at the atlas trying to find the least possible snow/blizzard impacted routes southeast. Tomorrow 65 mph winds are supposed to hit with all the snow we are getting. Well, maybe it'll blow away?

Spent the day paying bills, trying to figure a much reduced budget, and sorting an avalanche of paperwork until I couldn't stand it anymore. I'm a paper packrat, I'm a nut for paper trails. I was probably a house mouse in a previous life, if there were such a thing. I have a garbage sack full of old statements, offers, interesting articles, etc., etc. Business cards from people I will never need to contact again. You name it, I got it. I need to purchase a shredder when I go get Ms. Meowi.

I'm thinking of the ol' work place, laughing at whoever is/has/will be snooping through an avalanche of files in my computer at work, and hundreds of paper files looking for who really knows what. They'll just be plumb flat out exhausted. Not enough information ? No, instead a whopping big overload, detailed beyond sanity. But on the other hand it is so fun to just whip papers out of the file or emails and say, "no, here is what I asked you to do," or "here is the plan, the payment," etc., etc. , "all the info you need!" or "no, I did not say that, here's the email, memo, fax, outlining what I did say." Big smile.

A rogue telephone company turns me over for collection every year for the past six years. I have all the proof of complete payment. Just found it today, which was great, because I just got my annual notice from a collection agency that Vartech thinks I still owe them money. I imagine Vartech running a paperless office, several computer crashes, and that is why they don't know they have been paid. After six years, with an evil grin and malicious glee (one can only be tormented so long without going over the edge!), I tell the collection agency of the year to send me $20.00 for my trip to Kinko Copies and for postage and I will mail them the evidence of payment they need. I then do not hear from anyone again for another year. Have yet to find them on my credit report - so far so good.

Friday, January 05, 2007

SUCCESS (sort of)


Flowers to all of you for negotiating the maze to loftyperch. (You folks have seen me through a lot of stuff out here!)
I was locked out of blogger for a few days myself because I couldn't find my password. I just don't know what else to do other than quit blogging!
Any of you who read this - never, never, never read your comments at work or even in the privacy of your own home, blog about work, as you could go down on your job! (BUT in our corporate culture, its ok to go outside and and smoke several times a day, order from the Schwann's man, spend hours on the phone, etc., and gossip about coworkers, bosses, etc.) Blogging can be used as a weapon against you. Probably not legally, but you could be hassled until you were ready to hang yourself. I would've never dreamed. Anyway, I, before the privacy controls, was sure having a lot of hits! (There's not much for people to do out here but mind someone else's business, thus my grandma's many amusing euphanisms.)

New News: Drove through ground blizzards to get to work at 8:00 a.m. My computer was missing and my whole work area looked like a burglar had turned everything upside down. SD was waiting..............she promptly fired me, no reason stated, told me to get my personal things and leave. She was at war with me from the beginning because she had applied for my job. I just want them to give me the money due me for paycheck and final for unused benefits and the whopping two weeks severance pay offered so I can get on with my life and leave the cesspool to the sharks who like to swim in it. I had felt in my heart, I would be here only to get my boss through the elections. Little did I know the hell entailed in that road! Then I starting thinking, maybe two more years and retirement - but I tried, and the only failing is to not try at anything.
When I walked out of there, I felt like an elephant had been removed from my shoulders.
For those of you who tried to email me, my email address was also down - the provider told me that the address was associated with another account, not mine. Well, that scared the whoodiddy out of me, thinking that these people accessed my personal computer somehow. So the Bresnan.net address is re-associated with MY account once again with a new IP address assignment and new password. When I asked who it was associated with, they just blithly told me that "actually it was just 'disassociated'." What kind of explanation is that? I will be glad to hit that highway so I can quit looking over my shoulder wondering what will happen next.

Success: I did bring home my car that no longer has a crushed trunk! The next few days will be spent packing, sorting personal papers, etc. I can't even begin to think about back surgery. I just want out even if I have to crawl, so I will feel like they can't cause me anymore harm or grief. I'm getting so paranoid, I'm wondering if the "accident" that caused my back trouble was even really an "accident." It happened right in the middle of elections. I travel the same road everyday, day in and day out.
I guess paranoid means just thinking someone is after you. So, since there really is someone(s) after me, that leaves me sane, doesn't it?

Success: The battery for my camera finally arrived and that is what was wrong with the camera. Whew! I was thinking it was done for.

Blessing: Had a great Christmas just being with family, and that's all I usually want except for all the stuff that is broken and thrown in the garage to be fixed. But I got a beautiful leather jacket, a DVD player, a pedicure, nice eyebrows, a PDA/cell phone that will take some time to learn how to use - I have lusted quietly after one of those for months - new slacks & sweater, and just treated like royalty.
Gotta get to busting business around here - I want to have a load ready for my mom's garage when I go to pick up Ms. Meowi from boarding as soon as the roads clear a bit. Will try to drop by everyone's blogs as I take a breaks from sorting and packing.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Last night in Florida

Goodbye, goodbye my Florida once again and for a while. This was sunset tonight. Nice, huh? This is awful, but I haven't slept much for five nights just thinking of returning to work........checked on the decompression therapy today..........and then called my old chiropractor......he thinks the chiros here that do the decompression are not perhaps as qualified or successful as they are advertising......women's hair things - got almost my whole face waxed today, eyebrows done - woo, woo - my youngest has informed me the younger crowd has more than their face waxed nowadays - and I'm thinking "Oh, is this more information than I want, but I do not want to gross out my gynocologist - oh what to do now." Just in case you are laughing - who ever wants to talk about hair removal - hahah, do any of you remember the days of the Epilady? An electonic device similar to a razor - only it ripped the hair out of your legs? You would epilady and scream. OK, now I bet you wish I was blogging as if the government was still watching!

Happy New Year

Hey, folks, part of my New Year intentions are: Privacy controls on my blog. I am now tediously attempting to email all of you with an invite into my blog. I have also gone Beta, scary - we'll see. So if ya get this wierd invite, that's what's going on. So, I'm trying to figure out why Beta will not take a tab for paragraphs! While looking for pics for New Year's post, I'm wondering why all show celebration, or an old man with a clock? Anyone know? For a person who has suffered depression in the past, most of the stuff concerning New Year's did not interest me, because I was just wondering how on earth to face ANOTHER year. I'm glad things have changed. We did nothing but movies and green chili for New Years. Everyone was working. I've seen enough movies for most of the rest of my life. Well, not really, but sure did watch a lot of them. I'm packing to return to the mountains.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Rosemary is for remembrance

Why am I writing about rosemary on New Year's eve? I dunno, but I love, love, love rosemary. Maybe friendship, fidelity, and remembrance aren't bad things for a New Year's eve. The best flourishing plant in my yard besides rosemary is the orange tree. Rosemary is cool - it will flourish with little care. My rosemary is about 4 feet around now and about that tall and loaded with blue blooms. The fragrance is intoxicating. For Christmas decorations it is stunning, especially if it is sugared and used a garnishes for food.

The following came from an email from Gulf News:

Rosemary is typically considered a culinary herb. But there are so many uses for rosemary that no garden should be without this attractive and versatile plant.

The genus name Rosmarinus means "dew of the sea", a reference to the plant's preference for seaside conditions. This plant does indeed have good salt tolerance. The species name - officinalis - indicates that the plant has been used for medicinal purposes. Rosemary was a vital part of many ancient herb gardens and is still one of the most widely planted herbs.

Rosemary is a member of the mint family and may be grown outside from zones 8 to 11. In its native range around the Mediterranean Sea, rosemary flourishes in coastal regions so arid that a significant part of the plant's moisture comes from the dew absorbed through the foliage. Rosemary has flourished in Southern gardens ever since the arrival of European colonists on these shores.

Rosemary is steeped in holiday traditions, symbolism, and legends. Associated with remembrance, friendship, and fidelity, many stories have been told about this fragrant herb.

Two rosemary legends relate directly to the Christmas story. Rosemary flowers were originally white. One day during her travels, Mary draped her blue cloak over a rosemary bush. The rosemary flowers turned blue and the whole plant took on the lovely color and fragrance of Mary’s cloak.

In a similar legend, Mary dries the baby Jesus’s clothes on a fragrant bush after laundering. The plant’s name, rosemary, and its blue flowers are in remembrance of its humble service to the Holy family.

Because rosemary lends itself to pruning into topiary shapes, it is frequently seen as a potted plant pruned into a traditional cone-shaped Christmas tree. To maintain the shape, trim off branches that grow outside of the desired shape. Use the cuttings for cooking, strewing on walkways to release the aroma, or even adding to the grill or fireplace to release their smell.

After the holidays, consider planting your rosemary in the landscape. Rosemary needs at least six hours of full sun, well-drained soil and good air circulation. It is relatively easy to grow as long as it is watered sparingly to prevent root rot. Fertilize by mulching with a light layer of compost or using fish emulsion or other organic fertilizer.

If you keep your rosemary in a pot, the challenge with caring for this plant is to keep it on the dry side, but not so dry that it dies of drought. Repotting may be needed as they can get rootbound. If placed outside in a pot it can survive most of our normal temperatures.

Rosemary is propagated best from cuttings. Pencil-size cuttings should be taken in fall or early winter. Remove the leaves from the bottom half of the stems, and then stick the cuttings in moist garden soil, where they will root by summer. In moist climates, where rosemaries often prove short-lived, it is a good idea to root new plants periodically to maintain a supply of replacements.

I'm glad to have this article to remember in the spring to do some cuttings and a few more plantings. The local health food store has a gorgeous herb garden in front of it and I always like to linger there.

Friday, December 29, 2006

Aftermath

Ah, Christmas aftermath. Trying to clean up the piles. Just returned from a couple of days at my older daughter's house. The weather has been just a tad nippy. Got to see my daughter's ex, both the kids, and spend time with kids and daughter and eat some of the best southern greens and field lima beans I ever wrapped my lips around.

My 16 year old grandson, as of Saturday, showed me his restored vintage mustang with great pride - it will be his as soon as he gets his permenent license.

The little guy's Christmas present was the above bunk bed - yes, that's the show room not the little fellow's messy room. We're still working on that. He also got his own computer obtained by Mom for a pittance by lurking in Walmart electronics section from midnight to 6 a.m. on a specials night. The same lurking session netted a portable DVD player for me which I am going to love since my TV is broke and I have no sound devices at all working at the apartment.

I watched The Black Dahlia - interesting theory of the famous murder case, a very dark and seductive movie, and Night at the Museum (at the Rave Theatre) which was boring to start with but turned out to be quite a fun movie - Robin Williams' twinkling pulled it through and a delightful monkey and some supporting actors - I can never remember names - it was a feel good movie - just fun, and the little boy loved it.

Also watched M. Night Shyamaian's Lady in the Water - it was very good, the mood setting fabulous, and I loved the Lady's "Protector." What a guy that can look, hug, hold, and protect a naked woman and because she was in trouble, treat her so tenderly and protectively without putting a hustle on because she was vulnerable! The movie wasn't scary, just interesting, and funny in places. This guy did ANYTHING to protect the Lady, including swimming down the drain of a swimming pool - now how is THAT for chivalry. Uh, don't try it guys - this was a VERY pretend movie! I think Shyamaian is so unique with his stories.

Back to real life mimics -- also watched Eye for an Eye with Sally Field which I had seen before but it was still an exciting movie. Sorry folks, movie reviews are not what I am good at - I relate to them emotionally rather than intellectually -

Christmas Eve dinner? Ahhhhhhhhhh - Sushi and Tuna Sashimi. Did traditional ham Christmas day - nothing fancy, just some steamed broc, steamed carrots, and mashed 'taters, two pies we didn't eat. I love gourmet cooking - but just couldn't get it together - oh well, we had a great time just being together.

Time here is drawing to a close, now I wish I had thought ahead and along with the other medical stuff I got caught up on with my old doctors here, I wish I had obtained a second opinion on my back. I think its probably too late now. My mother informed me my car has been repaired and is awaiting me when I come back to the mountains. With obtaining an attorney, getting my car fixed, and a few other things underway, I am making some progress. Still indecisive about the back surgery. The girls want me to do it here. My hubby just wants it to go away. Guess it won't.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Peace

Warm Holiday Thoughts for All

Saturday, December 23, 2006

I did it.




Ok, here it is. The agony and the reward. I warn you, no laughing. I had wanted a thinner bird with some deep magenta and blues in the black feathers but it was explained to me that he was going to do sort of a Japanese style motif, so after some indecision I thought, well if I were commissioned for a painting and someone started telling me how to paint it, I would think twice about the commission, so I said, go for it. I'm happy with it.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Presents

Yep, Santa onna Beach. Not the real reason for the season, true, but the camera is at home, and cruising the net for good pics is not a time option! Our Lord deserves a gorgeous photo!

Boy, did I get out of town in time! I keep hearing stories of Denver being completely shut down as far as mail, traffic slow downs, road closures, etc. We have had one glorious day of 75 degrees with sunshine, and then it clouded up and continues to rain. But tis pleasant rain, not ice cold with wind driving it at 40 mph, but this is gentle.

Too much going on to blog about but here's one that cracked me up:

Conversation with grandson: (he) "You know Santa has a permnanent list, and he puts his finger by his nose and turns a switch to put you on the good one or bad one."

Love it! Love being around the youngsters. Will have to post the tattoo pics when I can talk my daughter into feeding them into a photo program on the computer. I have come to the conclusion that this Christmas present may have been more about her, as I don't think I have seen her laugh so much at my groans, whimpering, eye movements, etc. as I've seen her laugh about anything. Anyway I'm very happy with it, it is appropriately "mysterious" and artistic and at my age ya know you're not going to want it off before you die. And I was only kidding about my daughter, it was a wonderful Christmas present. The kids just love leading me down all kinds of wild roads! Sushi, taxi drivers, tattoos, ska, rockabilly, blues, etc. They are all so unique (the kids & grandkids and my greatest present is being present with them!)

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Decorating for Christmas on a budget


For Karen: I promised a picture of the urangle. The hospital had a Christmas tree and decorated it with "found" objects. There was unique recycling of masks, urinals, medicine cups, a prescription or two from Rudolph or Frosty the Snowman - I think they are GP's, accu-check strip bottles, and a few donated ornaments.

That's all tonight - oh the ballet was great - my youngest grandson took a younger yet friends and watching the little boys on the edge of the chairs with their eyes sparkling was the greatest present in the whole wide world.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Arrived.

Made it! Not too terribly exhausting. It's warmer here. There is 14" of snow expected where I left from. So I haven't seen daylight here yet - got in at 10:00 p.m. Krispy Kreme is demolished in favor of a new building. There is a new Walmart. Marble Slab Ice Cream Parlour is still going strong - we had multi spinkler birthday cake ice cream and dark chocolate with almonds and coconut. I don't waste time. Little boy wanted to go to Ci Ci's pizza, but it was soooo late - maybe later.

Stopped by daughter's work and saw the most unique Christmas ornament - an angel made out of a urinal.

Flying over Utah reminded me of flying over Greenland. A good share of it was white.

The big plane was spacious, had a movie, "The Illusionist," which was good - anyway I liked it. First newly released movie I've seen in months and months. The plot was great, but felt like some pieces may have been missing, but maybe that was because it took me a while to figure out the ear phones.

I want to visit my church tomorrow but perhaps should acclimatize for a few hours - I can breathe again - actual air coming through my nostrils instead of sand and dust! Hoorah.

Purple couch is pretty but has made the rest of our furniture look pretty shabby.

Enough - so tired.

Friday, December 15, 2006

How to Protect Yourself from Cyber Stalkers

I have a few more errands to run and I'm on my way to the airport. I had to contact a major in forensic computer science to protect myself from stalker. Here is good news for those of us who have had our blogs and/or our lives disrupted by cyber stalkers. This is something we read about or see on TV, but never think it will happen to us.

Also, if we have children, this will come in handy. My teen grandson was also victim to a cyber bully. Luckily it didn't go so far as phone calls and serious damage to his life, yet a teen's ego is fragile. I wish I had known this before! We erased his blog and he did not get back on the internet for a long time. That wasn't fair. These people should not be able to get away with making our lives miserable. Because of the wonderful reports on my handy site meter, I have reason to believe the stalker that was after me has attempted to cause me employment as well as legal problems. Why else would the State have spent a half hour reading 40 of my posts? This is carrying things to the point she could be prosecuted thanks to the work of a great cyber-sleuth. So, take a look at this blog below - it will show you how to keep evidence to protect yourself and your loved ones.

Ya Think is dedicated to helping us protect ourselves from this sort of outrage. This link is worth visiting. I never thought I would need it, but you never know until it happens to you.

Will blog ya from the South!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Christmas rushing

Viko Propane Sauna Heater? (from my comments) - no thanks, not this Christmas. I've had some luck lately, mostly bad, and you better bet your bottom dollar I will not be buying that propane sauna heater for anyone. Or me for my pretend sauna. Imagine the walls blowing up while you are sitting there naked, sweating!

Well, countdown! I HAVE to go pack last suitcase, so this will be short blog. Will worry about clean-up of place when I get back.

I found one thing Ms. Meowi will not eat, hee, hee. Lentils! She begged and begged and I gave in - and she keeps looking at her bowl and looking at me like she thinks I'm nuts!

I hate to report, I was having a hard time commenting on some blogs. I think blogspot is wrestling with its new brain child...or something.

This is a short one - too much to do, too little time.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Christmas is coming.........too fast

Ok, folks this is a western Christmas tree with no decorations. It is called a tumbleweed. Because it tumbles across the highway. Actually these dudes can be about 4' all the way around and they are beautiful sprayed white or silver with teensy lights on them.

Well, I'll soon be on the airplane. I'm so excited. I got my oldest daughter's gift ordered off of EBAY. I forgot to ask the younger if the tree was up. She was freaking about cleaning up the house before I got there. The first time I went home, I found the large rug from the bedroom covering the carpet in the study. I figured correctly that rug was covering a large coke/pepsi stain. Oh well. Just got a call from hubby. There is no Christmas tree up. Well, its about too late now. I guess we can string lights on the fake plant in the corner when I get there. I wish I could get them a tumbleweed, but I can't run fast enough with a broke back to catch one. I will do something artistic and fun anyway - we'll see what.

Wow, we're having a wild night in the apartments. Last night I couldn't sleep as people were ringing my doorbell or knocking until about 3 in the morning. I have a new invention - a doorbell that when it is punched, sounds like 4 barking dobermans. The banging has started, and a few screams from upstairs, yelling from a car out front....and gee, we're early tonight - it's not after 10:00 p.m. yet.

I have shredded nerves for about five different reasons. Well gotta go wash clothes, get organized.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Lentils and Lethal Weapons

Yum yum lentil soup. Minus the $3.99 red pepper. Are red peppers that expensive where you all live? Wow. Why do lentils, beans, etc., all say to sort and wash? Sort what - why do they sometimes have rocks and little pieces of mud in them? Why aren't they sorted and washed before packaging. Its a little bit like buying dirty underwear, isn't it? Yeh, I do have a lot of questions.

I'm actually cooking tonight. Last night dinner was green chili sour cream dip and tortillas. Store bought. But tonight I also have a recipe for orange date bars as well as the lentil salad. More yum.

One more suitcase to pack. Tomorrow I go find boxes and bubble wrap for my pottery pieces. Why, oh why did I ever bring those? I got a box from my daughter today full of yummy skin stuff which is great because it is so dry here that your skin gets sore and falls off. Well, almost. It does get sore, red, cracked, wrinkled - etc., etc.

Also in the box were pics of grandchildren, beautiful grandchildren. I'm not posting the pics for now, cuz ya' all know why, but I can't wait to see them. I hope my new camera battery arrives by then. Hubby says oranges aren't quite ready to pick yet. I said, "Wait for Nan!" Picking oranges with grandkids has become a nice Christmas ritual.

Called the airline a bit ago to ask for wheelchair, and it was hillarious as I was on hold forever, but some of the tidbits to keep one interested were as follows:

Any toiletries must be in 3 ounce containers and put into quart size plastic bags. OK? (Quart size bags are wonderful protection from liquid bombs.) Are the airlines merging with the sandwich bag companies?

New drinks are being offered, something about a super martini. Sounded delicous. Well, three or four of those would take your mind off a body cavity search for weapons like film canister openers, would it not? Nah, my whole family will be waiting - I don't want to slosh off the plane and breath straight alcohol into their faces.

I can't wait to face up to the TSA people - that is the T__tty patters (underwire bras ya know). Ya might wriggle one out (wire, that is) and strangle the guy in front of you. Ya know how threatening grandmas can be. It might be what the underwire is holding up that is the lethal weapon. Yuck, yuck.

Last time I flew, three TSA people scared me to death over a film canister opener about the size of small nail nippers, which according to the TSA website were acceptable, however a disclaimer did note that any TSA agent could declare any item a lethal weapon, which whether you know it is in your possession or not is a criminal offense. 'Tis true.

Is it me, or are people just getting meaner? I know in the past few months here, its been like dealing with, as my grandma says, "ol' bears with sore pee pees" Ok, ok, time to go wash my mouth out with soap, and finish the lentil salad.

Here's the recipe if you want:
1 cup dried lentils
1 medium sized carrot, finely diced or 1/4 cup
6 green onions, thinkly slice
l celery stalk finely diced
1/2 red bell pepper finely diced
1/2 cup cilantro leaves finely chopped
1/2 cup italian parsely leaves fine chopped
1 clove garlic minced
l tsp lemon zest
1/3 cup fresh lemon juice
1/4 cup olive oil
romain lettuce leaves for garnish

Cook lentils till just tender. Cool.
Toss lentils, carrot, green onions, celery, bell pepper, (I've done without that one), cilantro, parsely, garlic and lemon zest in large bowl. Drizzel with lemon juice and olive oil and toss to coat. Season with salt and pepper. Set on lettuce leaves.

G'night, ya'll.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

For Mr. Anchovy

Ducks along the Platte River

Friday, November 03, 2006

Celebration of Life

Several folks honored me by sharing their stories of loss of pre-born children. And a friend's daughter just lost her unborn infant.
The sharing of pain and love got me thinking. What if, what if....what if our gone away children were sent here to show us what powerful, dizzy-ing, estatic, privileged, heart expanding, and, yes, painful love resides within us? The power that keeps humankind going. The power that elevates us to our human level? Then....could it be that animals feel such love for their offspring? Sometimes I think not, when I see mamma zebras run off to save themselves while baby is attacked by a big cat. But animals care tenderly for young. I don't know. Life is really a mystery. But I do know the love we feel for the miracle growing in, and then out of, of our own body.

I know that when Rod passed away, we arrived at the funeral home, and I screamed out at God, "You better talk to me, and talk to me, NOW!" (I wanted a darn good reason for this!) And on another plane, the world rolled back and I could peer into heaven, and Rod was there in a green, green meadow with dozens and dozens of children of all ages. They were all looking at him, and he was smiling, looking about uttering his favorite phrase, "Far out!"

I often wonder if we all get to heaven as buff 20 year olds. I think not. But, do chidren grow up in heaven? Do us older folks get to be just somewhat buff? (Please, dear Lord!) Do animals go to heaven? On that one, I think yes. Rod always said that Jesus is returning to earth on a white horse - betcha that horse came right out of the meadows of heaven! And perhaps our dogs, our cats, and other pets join that crowd there too. I mean, little boys gotta have puppies!

Love. I think there is some very awesome special love up there that children go on to experience, those children that were loved and left earth, and then especially for those that didn't know that kind of love that is a part of God when they were on earth!