Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Thoughts on the 4th of July

This 4th of July I feel sad. My heart used to burst with pride when I stood and faced my flag and sang "The Star Spangled Banner." But my two year intimate acquaintance with politics and subsequent reading, news on the TV, talks shows, underground blogs, war that I am not sure doesn't have everything to do with politics rather than "freedom" has left me confused and sad and disillusioned in regard to my country. I suppose I'll eventually process it all.

My friend finished her book on our visit to Albania. It's excellent. When we visited I didn't consider politics at all. But world politics were at work. We visited an important chapter in history. And I can say I live in a country where I can actually get out to visit other places if I wish (not without some hassle, but it's not impossible - now), and most of us have toys for our kids, vehicles instead of donkey or foot travel and other things we take so for granted. We have phones, we can travel without seeing soldiers watching us with guns in hand. So much to be thankful for today, despite the crazy 21st Century political deviousness.

Other news:

The website finally kicked into its official name:

That's the good news. The bad news is that I can't work anymore on it, nor may I be able to access the files to clean it up and keep it running. We had a power outage yesterday while I was working on the computer, and when it was time for everything electrical to come back up, of course, my computer would not. It seems dead in the water. My web design software is lost somewhere since the move so reloading to a new computer is not an option now. I have to borrow daughter's computer which is not accessible to me 24/7. Computer is right arm, yes?

I'll see if the problem can be solved. At best, maybe a change out of the power source will work and I won't have to worry about how in the world I will be able to replace a couple of thousand dollars worth of software. And did I back up files? Well, I was working on it. About 1/2 way done is all.


So the Happy 4th of July sees me cleaning up the house, being chauffeur for hubby whose truck is broken, and the kids and grandkids are all gone doing 4th of July stuff. So much for moving close to family.

Well, there's a couple of movies for grownups at the Rave Theatres and I could go eat shrimp, and buy some plants for my planter. It's cloudy and grumbly for a 4th of July. Going to the beach would be like saying to the lightning: "Come get me!"

So hey, a day alone might be a welcome respite, after two years living alone, being in 1825 square feet with 3 messy people is wearing...being a tutor is wearing me out (but I am grateful I can do it)...however, it is a good thing I didn't choose that as a career..... so its the movies or some books or some art..type of day......or maybe pulling weeds?


* (asterisk) said...

I've always had a real fondness for the "Star Spangled Banner". And never did it feel more poignant than at the annual FDNY v NYPD hockey game at Madison Square Garden in 2002, just six months after 9/11. Red and I were there, with tears in eyes. But I know what you mean. With the way things have gone with Bush in Iraq, it leaves a bittersweet taste these days, and it proves hard to be as patriotic as we should be, as proud of our respective countries as want to be... Very sad. Hope your 4th was passable, though.

tshsmom said...

The last time our computer crashed, I lost a bunch of my blog contacts. I've found most of them again, but I lost a couple of my regular reads. :(

You're right, tutoring IS exhausting. Especially when the child has special needs, and we have to keep their interest.

Ya Think? said...

Hey there.. Do you have this handled on the website thing? If you need for me to, give me the access info and I will go in and back up your files.

Have you checked on a power supply? Do you need for me to come over and install it? I can come over Tuesday if you need me to.

Also do you need anything computer related that will enable you to work on your websites?

Let me know what progress you are making. You will not be doing without web-design or your computer.

I loved your website. It is nice

Candy Minx said...

The website looks fantastic...and I'm so glad the power shortage didn't mess you up permanently, whew! It looks fantastic.

I think it's okay to have many emotions surrounding our history and keeps us on our toes. No country is perfect and America is so much more potential than many other countries...I hope your feelings in this post were part "blip" and part persoanl test...always both good.

We had a quiet 4th with lots of fireworks making noises on our street...watched a lot of movies on tv.