Sunday, February 24, 2008
Night Pines and Endless Thoughts
Night pines, for me, are reminiscent of sleepless nights. While in the midst of one of these sleepless nights at 4:30 a.m. this morning, I decided to get up and have a Cappucino. As I limped through the kitchen, I thought, "My back hurts, maybe that's why I can't sleep." "Coffee is not too smart if one wants to go back to bed and fall asleep." I went on a search of night pine pictures - whew, that brings up some interesting results.
What do you think of as you lay sleepless in bed at night?
I thought of:
"I wonder if all the grandkids are ok, the kids....do I need to pray, what do I need to pray for them?"
"Damn cats, rumbling around so early making noise." The thought then drifted off ..."Are pets given to us to teach us kindness?" "They wake us up at night doing ridiculous animal things, they crawl on us, they make noise, and messes." "Do animals have souls?"
"My mother is so mad at her grandson because the dogs bark at him at night." (The dogs bark at everything all night and all day at her house.) "Why doesn't she make the dogs quit barking, since that is the only thing she actually could control?"
"Why is there absolutely no communication in our marriage?" "Why does who he is have to remain so tightly hidden and held away from everyone, but it is not personal, its not just me." "Isn't he lonely?" "Do I care anymore -- no, I am forced not to care."
"The lawn needs fertilized and the weeds killed, how will I get those heavy sacks into the spreader?"
"If I had a bed, I bet I would be more comfortable with my back." "Stupid, (to myself) if you hadn't bought a TV for the living room, you could have bought a bed"
"Why does the little boy prefer to slip in under the down comforter on the too thin piece of foam on the floor with Nana?" "Is it security--loneliness?" "I could redo his room for myself, but then he would move in there with me I think." "He's like glue, but that's ok." "Someday, he'll fly away like the big ones."
"Why do two of the cats poop on the floor by the litter box - is the litter too sharp on their feet -- no, they pee in the box."
"How can I get those chess pieces to look uniform and not all lopsided?"
"Will the six shrimp I ate tonight in addition to diet rations show on the scale tomorrow?"
"Did Rebecca decide to say 'yes' to the adoption of the baby?"
I envision some new clothes I wish I could buy.
"Is it too cold for grandson in here?"
"Why is my family so messy, how can I teach the little boy to put away his things when others won't?" "Why is the cleaning lady doing less and less of her job?" "I need to talk with her."
"The boy needs more fruit and vegetables."
"I need to call Susan and ask her if I can do anything for her since I was unable to access the portion of her website that would allow picture size changes."
"I need to throw away more paperwork in the study and buy a new shredder."
And more, so much more.
G'night - I've bored myself and probably you into sleepiness. Going back for another try.