Tuesday, March 20, 2007

May Lose a Few Days -


I started the treatments to my back yesterday. They are exhausting as I have to drive at least a two hours and then spend an hour or more there with some significant pain during the treatment, leaving me worth nothing afterward but pain.

However I had a wonderful clear morning (before treatment) this a.m. and walked for 1.5 hours - no pain! I still have faith they will work.

I find pain very interesting - I have tried all kinds of ways to handle it - from being slowly ate away to find myself unpleasant on all counts, to lying down and floating into it and asking it questions, (like "What is your purpose here, Pain?") to concentrating on it and feeling it on every level, resisting and crying, trying to separate the physical cause from the result in the brain cells....so ok, all this sounds like pain makes you crazy doesn't it - or does it sound very uh - Zen - philosophical - ???? I am such a chicken, such a chicken, a real wimp, I fear.

Hopefully tomorrah I will get on to everyone's blog......if not, please know I think about you and will catch up...

8 comments:

Pickled Olives said...

you take care of you, I am here and look forward to your updates!!

Red said...

Yep, just think about getting your back sorted. Don't worry about us: we're all playing nicely and there have been no tantrums... so far! Blogland can wait. Take good care of yourself.

* (asterisk) said...

Take it easy, G, and don't overexert. We'll all be checking in on you.

tshsmom said...

I'm praying that this works for you! ;)

d34dpuppy said...

tacara u

Biddie said...

I hope that this works for you. We'll all wait for you, and please don't worry about any of us.
HUGS

Karen said...

Hey sweetie! Take care of yourself and we'll see you when you're back to feeling up to visiting :)

Camie Vog said...

I've been thinking of you... Been a little too busy to visit as much as I'd like too. I'll send your back some good vibes.